Brendan Taylor and spot-fixing approach - Full statement

To my companions, family, allies, and more extensive public. I have been worrying about a concern for north of two years now that has unfortunately taken me to a few extremely dull puts and profoundly affected my emotional well-being. What's more I have as of late begun imparting my story to dear loved ones and got the affection and backing I surmise I was excessively embarrassed and terrified to look for in any case. This may not make for open to perusing yet I might want to say something with respect to seeing as made by the ICC, which is destined to be delivered. In late October 2019, I was drawn nearer by an Indian financial specialist mentioning that I go to India to talk about sponsorships and likely send-off of a T20 rivalry in Zimbabwe and I was exhorted that I would be paid USD $15000 to make the excursion. I can't deny I was somewhat watchful. However, the circumstance was to such an extent that we hadn't been paid for a long time by Zimbabwe Cricket and it was sketchy whether Zimbabwe would have the option to keep playing in the global field. So I made the excursion. The conversations occurred, as he had said, and on our final evening in the lodging, the money manager and his partners took me for a celebratory supper. We had drinks and throughout the evening they straightforwardly offered cocaine, which they, when all is said and done, occupied with, and I stupidly took the lure. I have gone over it multiple times since I actually feel debilitated to my stomach remembering that evening and how they played me. The next morning, similar men burst into my lodging and showed a video taken of me the prior night doing cocaine and let me know that on the off chance that I didn't detect fix at worldwide counterparts for them, the video would be delivered to the general population. I was concerned. What's more, with six of these people in my lodging, I was terrified for my own security. I had gotten bulldozed. I had energetically strolled into the circumstance that changed my life until the end of time. I was given the 15000 yet I was told this was a 'store' for spot-fixing and that 20000 extra would be paid once the "work" was finished. I took the cash so I could get on a plane and depart India. I believed I had no way out around then since saying no obviously was impossible. All I knew was I needed to leave. At the point when I got back the pressure of what had occurred seriously affected my mental and actual wellbeing. I was a wreck. I was determined to have shingles and endorsed a solid enemy of crazy prescription - amitriptyline. The 'money manager' needed a profit from his venture which I couldn't and would not give. It required four months to report this offense and cooperation to the ICC. I recognize this was excessively long of a period yet I figured I could secure everybody and specifically, my family. I moved toward the ICC according to my own preferences and I trusted that assuming I clarified my situation, my certifiable dread for our wellbeing and prosperity, they would comprehend the deferral. Sadly they didn't, yet I can't pretend obliviousness in such a manner. I have gone to numerous enemy of debasement workshops throughout the long term and we realize time is of the substance when making reports. I might want to put on record that I have never been engaged with any type of match-fixing. I might be numerous things yet I am not a cheat. My adoration for the lovely game far offsets and outperforms any dangers which could be tossed in my direction. Because of moving toward the ICC I went to various meetings and commitment and was really fair and straightforward during their examinations. Inside and outside I was pounding myself I actually wish I had looked for help and counsel prior for a huge number of reasons. That being said, the ICC is taking the choice to force a long-term prohibition on my worldwide cricketing profession. I unassumingly acknowledge this choice and just expect that my story will be utilized for consolation for cricketers to report any methodologies early. I will concede that the beyond two years have been unquestionably difficult, both actually and expertly and it is from the outright absolute bottom that I am attempting to move out of this wreck I made. My loved ones have been unquestionably strong of me and it is obvious to me since I have a lot more pressing issue which for quite a while has required tending to. Thus, I might likewise want to tell you that on Tuesday the 25th of January I am looking into a recovery community to get perfect and get my life in the groove again. I need to recount my story now since I realize individuals will need to hear from me. To attempt to get what prompted this point. Be that as it may, for a long time I will be away and attempting to improve. I deserve it and to my family to get perfect and put them first. I have allowed a substance to assume responsibility for me and weaken my vision, my ethics, and my qualities and it is time that I focus on the main thing. I likewise trust my story motivates somebody who hears it, to get the assist that they with requiring. I had not understood that approaching forward and talking would give me such a lot of help from the hellfire I have ended up in for a really long time. Medications and opiates don't segregate and it took all that I need to concede that I have an issue. To end, I really want to tell you I am upset for those I have harmed. I'm upset for those I have let down. I might want to thank my family, my companions and my allies for continuously being there. I have taken in the genuine significance of unwaveringness. The best honor that can be offered, is to commander and address ones country and for this, I am forever thankful. I'm likewise appreciative for what this experience has educated me. I'm thankful for my four delightful kids, my adoring and steady spouse, my wellbeing and the lucidity I presently need to need to be a superior rendition of myself. Brendan Taylor